| Exquisite my dream journal November 8, 1995
Unsure of where I am. On a large cruiser...another country. Canada? A woman (older with grey hair) is showing me a heavy diamond necklace straight from the showcase. I tell her it's wonderful, but I'm not into jewelry. She tries to get me to try it on...and keep it...despite my telling her this. I'm awestruck. I think it's beautiful, but know I'll never wear it. "Something" is telling me to "take the gift", but I am unsure.
Next scene, same dream.
I am looking closely at a display of board games sitting on the shelf of some gift shop. I am admiring the intricately carved and painted game pieces on one of them when an older couple walks up to me. "Board games are lovely" the woman says. "Yes," I say, "They are lovely." "And they make a great way to pass the time" she says, "why don't you buy it?" "Oh," I say, "I'm not considering buying it, but they do make a great way to pass the time."
my interpretation
exquisite, delicate, intricate...this is an old dream that keeps surfacing, demanding my attention. It is a pleasant dream, yet disturbing. On the surface, I can easily see connections between this dream and my life in the waking realm.
I am unsure of where I am, adrift; the exquisite (heavy) diamond necklace symbolizes the weight that comes with anything worth having; The older (wise?)lady tries to convince me to try it on and "keep it" despite my telling her that I am not into jewelry. She seems to know what I need; I realise that it is beautiful, but know I'll never wear it. "Something" is telling me to "take the gift."
The latent content reveals, or seems to reveal, that while I desire monetary wealth, I have a problem believing that I would "wear it," or "keep it"...maybe I don't deserve it? Something is telling me to accept it.
"Monetary wealth" may more appropriately be substituted for other, more important issues in my life, such as relationships (men in specific since I think this is what my subconscious was trying to deal with in the second dreamscene).
As for the second scene, I am admiring the delicate, intricate pieces of a board game. (Kings, Queens, Bishops) They, too, are exquisite...like the necklace. It looks like a rather expensive game of chess. I admire the pieces...I study them from a distance, and know that I'll never buy it. The wise older lady still thinks she knows what I need. "Why don't you buy it?" she asks. Is she asking me to buy the game?...to accept the jewelry?
The game is bought; the jewelry is given. Hmmm...both are lovely and a great way to pass the time.
Games (in relationships) are boring; I want something real, but not given. I'll work for it. The weight (or wait) is worth it.
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